Satan is like a flying cockroach

My title basically sums it up. Through the fast this week I learned a lot about my self and some struggles that I had with my faith that I didn't realize I had until this week. The fasting last week went really well. Monday and tuesday was all real hunger ( i just drank water and juice, but the juice REALLY helped). Wednesday and Thursday were harder because it was all mental hunger. I swear I thought about Portillo's chocolate cake for 2 hours straight Thursday night. Friday was the best day, no hunger at all until it was time to break the fast ooo OOO! (FASTING TIP- never break a 5 day fast with cookies and cheetos. You will regret it.)

There were a lot of things I realized this week that I struggle with, like lies from Satan. Which I know I have mention before but they were all very REAL this week. And one lie that I believed was that Satan is the exact opposite of God, but he still had as much power. In my head, I knew that God won over satan but I always felt that satan had as much power as God. That is something I learned is so NOT true this week. The speaker this week, John Leech (who was very good) said something that really got me. It went something like that "Since Christ died for us and lives in us, his power now lives in us. Since satan is under His feet, he is under our feet too." Like, wow. I never thought of myself has bigger than satan. I am TIIIIIIINY compared to God, so how much smaller can satan be? I'll tell you. A cockroach. Which are annoying as heck, especially when they fly around like they do here. Seriously, lets compare. Satan and cockroaches are both ugly. They are both small but mentally they do a a lot of damage if we let them. They both fly around and try to attack you and freak you out. BUT they are both taken out so easily. Just like killing a cockroach with a flip flop, we can squish satan's attempts at attack us. We don't need to actually conquer him because Jesus did that for us at the cross, but we still need to stomp on his attempts to draw us further from God.

As our class as a whole gets stronger in Christ, the attacks form Satan get stronger too. Here is a quick little story. On thursday, there was a lot of spiritual warfare going on in people in our class. Just attacks from satan, like tearing relationships down or on their families back home. One of my roommates, Gaby, lost her passport and couldn't find it and she needed it for outreach. So (this is gonna sound silly) the 5 of us roommates got together and we prayed for God to show us where the passport was. 2 of us got the word drawer and 1 of us got the word pens. So we went straight to the draw where she kept her sharpie pens and BOOM there it was even though she looked through it yesterday! Glory.

Earlier this week, when I was going through a hard time, several people came up to me and prayed for me or gave me Bible verses. And they were all dead on about what I was feeling. A girl prayed for me about a week ago and EVERYTHING she said had run through my mind at one point that night. All the doubts and fears I had that I hadn't told anyone, she prayed about. This is the sort of proof that I have been waiting for that God is REALLY there and not so distant. When I was struggling with doubts of Him even being there, He sent 4 people to me with verses or prayers that were so accurate and then helped me and my roommates find a passport!

This has been an intense week. I am still learning how to overcome lies and live in truth. This whole experience has gone way part my expectations. There are a few things that you can be praying for, if you would like :)
-That our class keeps growing stronger in Christ and with each other
-That my Haiti team bonds and grows strong together

Thank you so much for all of you who are praying for me! Know that you all have a very special place in my heart and I too am praying for you :)