Fasting...again

So here's there deal. Remember how I had that one "sad revelation" a few weeks ago, when I realized that when I feel separated, that God feels separated? Well not to be a Negative Nelly, I am still not feeling that close to God. Which is a bummer. I love Him and I know He is there and it all makes sense that He love us because if He didn't, He wouldn't create us but something is still not clicking. Now I am ready for a revelation of His love. So in light of this, I have decided to do a 5 day fast. Not a media fast, but a food fast. Only water and juice. No food. Yeah.

Today was the first day of it and so far, not too bad. I have been drinking TONS of water so that helps. When I am supposed to be eating, I am reading the bible/praying/soaking/journaling instead. I am also reading through the book of Daniel while I am fasting. There are a few other kids in my class who are fasting for the same reasons, so I know that I am not alone in this.

Ok now for some fun stuff!
After a failed attempt to catch an EARLY morning bus on saturday, we ended up renting 2 cars and 10 of us went around the island. It is AMAZING. We first went to this huge beach which was still on this side of the island, then drove to the other side. Its kinda weird but seeing the ocean looks completely different on the other side. You couldn't tell where the ocean ended and the sky began. So we drove down to the ocean and stopped where there were huge lava rocks to walk out on. Feeling the ocean mist and sunshine all at once is an experience I'll never forget. Then it was time for some waterfalls. As we were walking along the path to get to the waterfall, we stopped and went inside this HUUUUUGE banyan tree with the roots growing form top to bottom. Weird, I know. Walking down into the middle of it was like walking from day to night. It was cool and dark and a whole different world in there. Then the waterfall. Awesome. We would just stand and watch once patch of water from the top slowly yet speedily fall and scatter all the way to the bottom. Gorgeous.

The best part of the night though was on the way home. It was about 12:30 AM, and we are all pretty much sleep talking by this point, being so tired. We were driving through the countryside (basically, a LOT of rocks) when we pulled over to look at the stars. BILLIONS OF THEM. I have never seen the night sky like this before. It almost looked gray, there was so much light. You could actually see an arm of the Milky Way. I have never seen that before. Even in the midst of my rocky times, God still surprises me with a gift like that :)

"We rejoice in our sufferings because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us." ROMANS 5:3-5