Ok, so let me explain the "God is Creepy." I mean this in a good way. I first heard it from my dear friend Emily, and it just stuck. God can be pretty creepy-like when he shows up in your life when you least expect it. Or you randomly come across a Bible verse that you have never seen before and yet totally fits what is going on in your life. Or you are having a conversation with someone about your fears and then the next day you read an awesome quote from a christian author that is basically about your fears. Here is my example for why God was creepy in my life today. Emily gave me the daily devo book "Jesus Calling" by Sarah Young and, just for kicks and giggles, I flipped to July 8th (the day I leave for YWAM) to see what it says---and it was creepy. "When you seek my face, put aside thoughts of everything else. I am above all, as well as in all...open wide your heart and ming to receive more and more of me. When your joy in me meets my joy in you, there are fireworks of heavenly ecstasy." Basically, for the last 3 months, I have been praying that God opens my heart to what He has to teach me at YWAM, and that I not fear the changes He has for me. And then I read that it is just creepy. Gotta love it.
So basically, these last few days I have been a big ball of emotions. Although I haven't cried yet, I am sure I will be a weepy mess for the next few days. I can't even think about saying goodbye to my family without having a mini panic attack. One thing that keeps me going is prayer. The praying that I do and the praying that I know people are doing on my behalf. It is so encouraging knowing that I have a whole slew of people praying for me and my fellow YWAMers while I am preparing and when I go. It seriously calms my heart. I could not have asked for more supportive friends and family members, and I am so thankful for them.
God has once again been crazy by providing almost all the money that I need. I received a very large check this week from a good friend (you know who you are-and you are awesome!!!) and it has helped a TON. I can not express the gratitude that I have for all of you who have supported me. You are all flipping awesome and you are totally helping others hear about the Lord! I only need roughly 1,000 more in the long run. I will know for sure how much when I find out where my outreach will be. Thank you all again so much for being apart of my life and for supporting me and my endeavor! The next time you hear from me, I will be reporting from Hawaii :)
Please pray for
-an open heart
-safe travel
-no fear
"For I am convinced that neither death not life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any power, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord." Romans 8:8-9
Kristi, I totally agree that God can be "creepy"! There have been so many times in my life that I have felt the same way. I think of when you were born and we were driving home from the hospital and I sat in the back of the car with you as your dad was driving insanely slow all the way home and I thought "I cannot go back to work and leave this precious gift He has given me, what do we do?" Struggling with this for the next few months we came to the deadline of me needing to let my boss know whether or not I was coming back to work. We went to church that Sunday - discussing on the way whether or not we could "make it" if we did not have my income. The sermon that day centered around "What is is the value of Money anyway?" and I swear that Pastor was looking straight at us the whole time! Creepy! :) We made our decision that day that I would stay home and He has blessed it ever since. Blessed it by allowing us to raise such an incredible young woman. A woman who despite fears and uncertainties still moves forward with God's call in her life. You are going to know such amazing things Kristi!!!! Psalm 115:1 "Not to us, O LORD, not to us but to YOUR name be the glory, because of your love and faithfulness." That is my prayer for you! I love you! Mom
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