For those who have heard from my family/friends yesterday, I am totally fine. I was in the hospital for what they thought was gallbladder or appendix problems but it ended up being some girl stuff which I will spare you all from hearing, but I will be fine and it is nothing to worry about. Praise God this didn't happen 2 weeks form now or it would have made a very interesting start to YWAM! Thanks for all the prayers!
Now, moving on to more fun stuff. 13 days is what I have left here in Illinois. One minute I am having a panic attack about it and the next I feel like I am going to burst if I don't get there any sooner. It really hit me that I am going to be gone for half a year when my good friend Paul Boyer left to do his YWAM 2 weeks ago. The night he left, I was with his girlfriend (my best friend, Hannah, who I will miss dearly) and I was like "dang. 6 moths is a long time." Its not like in a few weeks we will see him again. We will still be months away. And it kinda freaked me out. But then I started to think a lot more about time and how 6 months really isn't that long it you look at it from a different view. Lets say that the average person lives 80 years (God willing). That means this trip is only going to take up 1/160th of my life, which is so not that long. So it freaks me out less if I think of it that way. And I know that this 1/160th portion of my life is going to change me forever and I am getting so pumped just thinking about it!
One thing that I have been dealing with while preparing for this trip is what God is going to ask me to give up or do. Which is totally dumb because I know that whatever he has in mind for me is 10874635487 times better than what I could ever plan. But here is another crazy story about God. So, I was talking to my dear friend Hope about this and then the next night I read THIS in Forgotten God by Francis Chan. "the flip side of fearing that God won't show up is fearing that he will. What if God shows up but then asks you to go somewhere or do something that is uncomfortable?"So that pretty much sums it up for this fear. God is always listening, even when we don't feel like He is, and in the smallest of ways( like in a book), He comforts us. I just love that.
A little side note on support...God is freaking COOL. I am so serious. One night I was totally doubting it, that he would provide (again, I know I am stupid). The next day, I got a check in the mail from someone who knew I was doing the trip, but I never even sent them a letter! I LOOOOVE that God is showing me that He is taking care of me, even when I am a fool and doubt it. I am definitely learning what trust really is during this time of my life. As of now, I still need roughly 2-3 thousand more. Thanks again to all who have supported me both in finances and prayer!
A few things to be praying about in these last 2 weeks...
-No more health snafoos for me or anyone else
-Support still comes in
-That I (and my team) will not fear what God has in store for us
-For the school leaders as the prepare for us to arrive
-For my friends who have already started their YWAM and those who are going to start when I do, and those who start after after me!
"The Lord your God is with you, he is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, he will quiet you with his love, he will rejoice over you with singing" Zephaniah 3:17
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