Who Defines Me

My blog title is a work in progress in my own life. I am working on what my own definition of beauty is. For too long I have let this world tell me what beautiful is, and that I don't fit into that description, and I never will. I have beat myself up time and time again for not being thin enough, being too tall, having the wrong kind of hair, not having a perfect nose. You name it, I hated it. I would tear everything apart from my head to my feet, from the number of freckles on my face to the spacing of my toes. Everything of my anatomy has been studied, ridiculed, and declared "not good enough" by my own mind.

Not only would I judge my outward appearance, but my personality as well. Never funny, clever, witty, or smart enough. Always said the wrong thing. I ripped apart everything about myself, in and out, thinking that God somehow made a mistake 21 years ago when He created me to be how I am today. That nobody could possibly love me (besides my family, and that is only because they had to). I was just too awkward, weird, and ugly. The worst lie of all that I heard -I was the only one that had these thoughts. "when he lies, he speaks his native language, for he is a liar and the father of lies" (John 8:44). Satan whispers lies to us from the day we were born, and we so easily accept them.

I am DONE listening to the lies that had once run my life. I want to start living my life as the person that I was created to be, not the person that tries to fits into the status quo of this modern world. I want my definition of beauty to be completely pulverized and rebuilt by the One who invented beauty. I will no longer let magazines, television, movies, and other products of our culture define who I am or who I should be. I am much more than a physical body, as are you.

We are BEAUTIFUL. Jesus, the most perfect, unblemished, beautiful thing ever lives within us. We were fearfully and wonderfully made. We are the most perfect thing He has ever created. He didn't put us higher than angels as a fluke, it is because we are his favorites! It makes me so giddy! So lets start living by how the One who lives in us views us. We are nothing with out Him, but with Him we are perfect, whole, wonderful, beautiful.

"For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God. When Christ, who is your life, appears, then you also will appear with him in glory" Colossians 3:3-4